Alex stepped in the shower. His frame was muscular, lean, and yet it was a story of pain that those scars told. He let the cold water on him, all of his look fixing his body. His hands, they were still harsh from his mortal days, fixed in an eternity of callouses and pained joints, constantly reminding of their restlessness. They wanted to feel the sword, the axe, the punching bag, the flesh of someone. He closed them, and his memories of a more violent time, a simpler time. Letting the palm of his hand touch his body, he leaned down, touching the tips of his feet. His index travelling on his skin, he slowly began to go up. Soon, a story, his first fall of a bike. He smiled, picturing his dad all panicked. It was good when he was alive. Proceeding, he avoid his loins to go straight to his chest. Several scar were there. Each told of an horror, and the satisfaction to have done the duty that was his. Probing a mark around his left nipple, leaving a gap in his muscle. He smiled. "I hope you have found rest at least, friend."
The water, hot, burned his skin bringing human warmth to his memories. He gazed at his crotch. He closed his eyes, the idea of sexuality emerging again in his mind, long lost in studies and the blood shackles. Reminiscences of senses, of intense scenes erupted into his mind and hence melancholy. "Fuck, even now, I can't except her for who she was, is, a fucking monster." Anger rose in him, remembering past pain, joy and hope. Despair overflowed him. Despair of what could have been, has been said, and the wounds he still boar, even after all those years. "I need to find her, to have closure. Justice for the misery she put us through, me first." He looked at his feet, seeing red blood on the ground, fumes emanating from the mixed Vitae and scorching water. "Stupid Josh" he groaned, jaws clenched, as he hurled his hand into the shower wall. A loud cracked occurred, as several fingers broke in this punch.